Last weekend I had the incredible honor of attending Amber Lilyestrom’s Soul Fueled Summit with my internet bestie, Courtney. Amber also happens to be this week’s guest on the Becoming Fearless Podcast (side note: thank you, everyone, who has left a review!). Basically, Amber is a female Tony Robbins, and the entire summit was about finding self-love. Self-love is something that I have been struggling with lately, and this isn’t something that I’ve talked about publically yet. I’ve talked about how the work bully enabled me to make a bold move and start a company that brings women together, which is amazing in itself. But one facet that I haven’t shared is the physical effects that I’ve endured from the years of stress and emotional abuse in the workplace.
The physical side effects have not been pretty and have dramatically changed my self-esteem and ultimately my self-love. Around 2014 was when my thyroid started acting up – it became enlarged, and my thyroid hormone levels were below normal; this is called sub-clinical hypothyroid. I spent two years trying to fix that problem going from doctor to doctor, never really able to find the real solution. I was on thyroid medication and all kinds of supplements through 2016. My energy was inconsistent: one day I’d be awake and ready to go, and the next day, I could barely keep my eyes awake. This isn’t ideal when you are trying to start a business.
Fast forward to earlier this year and my other internet bestie Krista, and I started talking about hormone imbalances. She had a saliva test done with a hormone consultant (you can read about her results here and all of the in-depth details about balancing your hormones – it’s a great read) and after hearing about that, I decided to work with Candace.
I also sought out a second opinion from my doctor, who put me on a high-dosage birth control (I haven’t been on a hormonal pill in over 10 years). That gave me night sweats, heart palpitations, and made me feel like I had a heart attack in the middle of the night. This was right before we left for LA in March and these pills made me feel worse and made me gain even more weight.
I went off the pills, let my body reset, and got saliva tested with Candace. The results were mind-blowing. All this time I thought I had a thyroid problem that caused my energy swings and weight gain, but it turns out that is not the case.
Here is what’s actually wrong with my hormones:
- normal levels of estrogen
- almost no progesterone
- low levels of testosterone
- early signs of adrenal fatigue
Candace explained that I essentially have estrogen dominance since my entire hormone balance is out of whack. When you have high levels of stress, your adrenals start to fatigue and steal progesterone in order to produce cortisol. When you have excess estrogen in your body, it also prevents your thyroid hormones from reaching your cells, so your metabolism slows down or completely stops. Testosterone is another important hormone to regulate your metabolism.
So, this all explains the energy issues, the crazy mood swings, and the weight gain. She gave me a list of supplements to start taking to help balance my hormones and a hormone balancing diet to follow: no gluten, dairy, sugar, caffeine, or alcohol. I decided to go vegan for 30 days to try and accelerate my healing after Mike’s Mom told me about the healing properties it can have for your microbiome (gut) and metabolism.
So here I am, two short weeks into my healing journey and I can already feel a huge difference in my mood, my energy and I’ve started to lose a little bit of weight.
But the other thing that ties this all together was attending Amber’s summit because I desperately needed to heal myself on the inside. We spent a full day (9:30 am – 5 pm) hearing inspirational speakers, dancing, and doing exercises to awaken our souls so that we could let our light shine from within.
We closed our eyes and sat with our 5-year old selves, envisioned our past and future lives, wrote letters to ourselves, proclaimed our self-love, and vowed to no longer abandon ourselves. This was some deep stuff, friends. A lot of laughing and crying all in the same day. I’m so grateful that Courtney was by my side because she has helped me feel better about myself through my workouts, but it has been quite the journey to get to this place of accepting the things that I cannot change.
Today I wanted to share inspirational quotes from the summit, and what I’ve vowed to do in order to heal myself from within.
Show up for myself and not just others.
Let the hardships propel you into your dreams.
Fear of success is fear of being yourself.
No one is judging you but you.
To be curious is to be worthy.
You are worthy.
It’s safe for me to be who I am.
It’s okay to feel your feelings.
Instead of comparison, compassion.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
If not now, when?
Stop hate talk and have self-love.
Realize my worthiness.
Empower me, too.
If you live in New England, I would highly recommend investing in yourself and attending Amber’s Soul Fueled Summit the next time around. And if you’re interested in connecting with her, listen to the Becoming Fearless Podcast episode with Amber.
Thank you so much, Amber, for comping our tickets to the Soul Fueled Summit. All opinions are my own and I truly believe in and love what Amber is doing to help others come home to themselves!